Case study: Colin, 39, Scotland

“About 6 years ago my relationship broke down and it really knocked me for six. When I found out she was seeing someone else, I was gutted because I still loved her.

“Just under a year ago I lost my father. He was the main focus in my life. One day he stood in the kitchen and just fainted. We found out he had a brain tumour; it was a time bomb that was ticking away. They couldn’t remove it and he passed away.

I didn’t want to talk to family about my problems as everyone has their own stuff to deal with. I just tried to deal with it on my own.
 

“One day I was up, next day I was down. I mean you could be watching something on telly and it would remind you of something, and then you’d be back down again. I didn’t want to talk to family about my problems as everyone has their own stuff to deal with. I just tried to deal with it on my own.

“I did think about suicide but I’ve never acted in it. There’s not one specific thing that leads up to it, it’s just one thing after another, the break up, my father’s ill health, my nephew died. What stopped me is that I do think I’ve got more to give.

“I think talking makes a difference. If you’re talking to somebody you can honestly, genuinely trust, it can get things off your chest. I told a close female friend how I was feeling; she could see things were building up. If she didn’t hear from me for a couple of days she’s come and make sure I was alright.

“My family would be really surprised if they knew how I felt, because they think I’m a strong person. I think people are embarrassed to talk about suicide. With my problems, I’ve had to accept that life moves on and I can’t do anything about it. At the end of the day my ex is with someone else and that’s it.”