I call Samaritans because I want someone to listen

Last year we received around 244,000 calls from people like Becky at Christmas.

Losing her father

"My dad killed himself just before Christmas. It hit me hard, I was only 14.

"I really tried to cope with everything, but I just found it so difficult – I felt so empty. I suppose I became pretty morbid.

"I got into a bad relationship and started hurting myself. It was a horrible time, but I finally found the strength to leave my boyfriend and go to college.

Another tragedy

"Things were good for a while and I met someone new.

"Then when I was 21 I discovered I was pregnant.

"I was really looking forward to being a Mum; I bought all the books and some little sleepsuits. But that Christmas I lost the baby.

"I’d already started to dream about what Christmas would be like – a tree, a turkey, our own traditions – then suddenly I had nothing.

Coping with Christmas

"Everything bad seems to happen around this time. I know my friends want to be there for me but I just don’t feel like I can talk to them. 

"That’s why I’ve tended to spend a lot of Christmas Days on my own.

"But whenever things have got too much, I’ve always been able to talk to Samaritans.

"And when I do I know there’ll be someone there to listen. Someone to say, “You’re doing alright,” and who won’t judge me.

Looking to the future

"As for now, I’ve got a new job, which is good, and I’m planning to do better this Christmas.

"I feel like I’m ready to do it again.

"But I know that if I need someone to talk to, if it all gets too much, I can talk to Samaritans."

How you can help

When someone gets in touch with us, it’s often because they have nowhere else to turn.
And at a time like Christmas, when everyone else seems to be celebrating with friends and family and everywhere is shut, it’s even more important that we’re there to listen.
With your support, we can stay open at Christmas. And every other day.

If you want to help us be there to support people like Becky, please consider donating to Samaritans. If you’re already giving to us, thank you so much  -  your support means we can be there to help the millions of people who contact us each year.