After university, Molly thought she was the only person who didn’t have a job lined up. She explains:
"I had a great time at university - surrounded by people in a similar position – I never felt alone. Sure, I got really stressed in my final year, who doesn’t? But I really enjoyed studying music, met a great boyfriend at uni and made some friends for life.
"I’d heard that getting a graduate job was tough, but I never thought it would have such a profound effect on me. All I wanted was a job for September. I was in my last term at university and thought the clock was ticking.
"Job application after job application got an “Unfortunately on this occasion, you have not been successful”. I started to compare myself negatively to everyone around me. I would trawl through social media, looking at my friends, thinking: “Everyone else has got a job lined up, I’m useless.”
"On the day of my graduation I couldn’t stop crying. I had done well in my degree and knew I should be celebrating but I just couldn’t. I couldn’t see that anything was going to work out."
Molly says that when she moved home to her parents she felt isolated and alone, which made these feelings more powerful:
"My parents were more than happy for me to live with them for as long as I needed. But I missed my old life terribly. Suddenly, I had no social life, nobody really to talk to. When I did meet up with my friends I didn’t want to burden them with the way I was feeling."
Her problems got worse and had an effect on her relationship:
I had been seeing my boyfriend for two years. He didn’t understand why I had changed. Why had I gone from being outgoing and appearing confident to extremely stressed and withdrawn?
"Meanwhile, I was still desperately trying to find a job. By now, I was looking for anything, not necessarily a graduate job. I just needed something to make ends meet. I bounced between minimum wage temporary jobs. Eventually, my relationship with my boyfriend broke down, which was the final straw.
"I visited my GP because by this stage, I needed help with the way I was feeling. They were wonderful, they explained that I was suffering with depression and referred me to cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT)."
Determined to carry on with her interest in music, Molly pursued a master’s degree:
"I enrolled on a master’s degree in music and felt like I was once again focussing on my goals. I was still struggling to cope though, I felt quite daunted by the new subjects I was covering.
"I saw an advert for Samaritans. The idea of having a listening, non-critical ear really appealed to me. I emailed firstname.lastname@example.org because I have always been anxious over the phone."
Molly explains that just writing down what was bothering her was a great emotional release:
"The first email I sent was long and rambling, a bit garbled. I had so much on my mind I didn’t know where to begin. But the Samaritan who responded to me somehow managed to recognise each of my problems. They asked me how I thought I could break these problems down, make them more manageable.
"Going back and forth to Samaritans, I was able to work out a way through. In time, I realised that my life wasn’t out of control, I just felt that way. Above all, I realised that I never have to feel alone. I can contact Samaritans at any given time, day or night."
Molly is launched her first music album this year and has successfully completed her master’s degree. She says:
"Now I see that I have a lot to be proud of and that the future really does look bright. If I had my time again, I think I would have got in touch with Samaritans much sooner.
"Sometimes things just pile up and it is difficult to see a way through. Life can get better and until it does, Samaritans is there to listen."