I felt isolated; only the four walls of my flat seemed to confirm my existence.
Calling Samaritans isn’t easy. Low self-esteem, guilt and feeling worthless were all barriers to picking up the phone.
Eventually something happened. I’d had a chip pan fire in my flat that night and was all worked up. The fire was a catalyst, but it wasn’t the real reason for calling the helpline. My feelings ran much deeper.
I was alone and vulnerable until the moment my call was answered.
The voice on the end of the phone was gentle and reassuring… my guilt gave way to calmness. I was no longer on my own.
Samaritans didn’t take away my pain but the pain was no longer so overwhelming.
I now want to ensure that Samaritans is there for anyone who needs to talk and be listened to anonymously and unconditionally.
Samaritans gave me a lifeline. Without that my story could be quite different.